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Name: stephanie
Nick: nikki
Location: pasig
Status: single
Email: deviant_nikki@yahoo.com
Day Job: student
Loves: nature,,sports,,skimboarding,,athletes,,climbers,,nature lovers,,,boardshorts,,two piece,,wall climbing,,reaggea music,,music,,party,,dancing,,movies,,green,,pink,,brown...
Hates: pessimism,,corruption,,pollution,,selfishness,,ego trippers..

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billabong boardshorts roxy two piece body glove surf board hiking shoes addidas jacket lakambini pants ipod a new cellphone

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Artist: Anastacia
Song: Sick And Tired

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bogs,,
i miss you so much.. you just don't know how much it pains me.. how much i long for you.. honestly,, ang hirap talaga tanggapin na at such a short time napalitan mo ako.. indi ako galit kay micah or sau.. masakit lng tlaga.. you know very well that once i love a person i wouldn't be able to stop loving.. ang hirap lng talaga kc nagpauto ako sa mga sinabi mo dati..ang tanga2 ko kc naniwala ako dun sa mga cnbi mo.. di ko naisip na during that time mahal mo pa pla ako nun and at that time you were in pain.. ang tanga2 ko tlaga... naniwala ako dun kaya etoh ako ngaun... hirap na hirap.. bkit kc ang tanga ko.. kc naman eh..lamu namang uto-uto ako..tas nagbitaw ka pa ng mga salitang ganun.. it keeps on ringing in my ear "ikaw na ang last,,kung magkakaroon man ako,,indi ako makapagmamahal ulit ng higit pa sau.." bakit kc ang aga.. bakit ang bilis? cguro nga mas madaling makamove-on pagmay kapalit.. i thought i was different.. indi pala.. tama ka..im no different from your exes..indi dahil sa cnsbi mo na niloko kta pro im no different kc ganun mo lng din ako kaagad napalitan.. ang hirap tanggapin..sobra..ang hirap talaga.. parang ang feeling tuloy indi mo ako minahal..naisip ko maybe you're just in love with the feeling of being in love.. maybe u just needed someone to own u,, and someone you own.. or maybe not.. i don't know.. right now ang dami kong sama ng loob sau... pero i can't get mad at you.. and i don't know why.. isang beses lng ktang pinagsalitaan ng mura at un ay nung cnbi kong "taenamo,, taeka,, kapal ng mukha mo!" un lng...may mga times na i say "putangina" (which i immediately say sorry for)pero i never said "putanginamo" which by the way i hear from you everytime we have an arguement.. you know what my biggest mistake is? it's the time that i let you disrespect me the way you did.. i learned things the hard way.. according to bo sanchez "you teach people how to treat you" and yes because i tried to understand that you were able to curse just like that because during those time you were really mad and you lost your temper.. but you know that's no excuse for you to step on me like that.. kat,,ays,,kai,,ia,,ma-in was right i shouldn't hve tolerated that.. and according to my dad "i'm going to be a doctor someday, and i should put value to myself" and i realized i didn't put enough value to myself cos i let you treat me that way.. maybe i was blinded by stupid love.. argh philocrap.. and now you act like everything was long forgotten.. ang yabang ng dating mo sa totoo lang.. how dare you set us aside.. i know you bogs you're the kind of person that if you want something done you'll really find a way to get it.. i don't buy any of your excuses.. yes i know your busy but i also know that you can find the time if you really want to.. i know..cos that's something that i love bout you.. that's why it pains me that a month has passed and still haven't had the time for our barkada to talk.. oo makulet ako...makulet talaga ako.. dba..san ka nakakita ng ako na nga ung sobrang nasaktan mo ako pa ang naglilimos ng oras mo para ikaw ay mapatawad ko.. san ka pa dba?! porke may new circle of friends ka na at may micah ka na akala mo na kung sino ka na.. sa totoo lang ang dami mo talagang kasalanan sa akin..and damned!! ngaun ko lng lahat napansin..kc i was so blinded when i was still so inlove with you.. i keep on understanding you and giving you the benefit of the doubt.. you made me feel that everything is my fault.. you talk to me like you're so perfect.. how dare you project your own flaws to me.. you keep on telling me that i am a close-minded person..? helo?! wala pa akong kaibigang nakakapagsabi niyan..o kahit kaaway ko... i know myself... to think na sinabi mo pa na you know me better than my friends...grabe... that's the stupidest thing you've said... if you're going to open your mind you'll see that you are in fact the one who has a close and shallow mind.. sabihan mo pa ako na ako lng ang gusto kong iniintindi...kindly recall all the things you've done to me... and you'll see that i've been understanding you ever since.. baka ikaw un ang tingin mo sau... lamu meron akong nabasa "how you see others is how you see yourself".. ponder on that.. at helow?!!?! yah i know indi lang ako ang tao sa mundo mo... pero helo i'm not demanding so much from you dba?! isipin mo nlng kung gaano ko tiniis ang mga araw na pinakita mong wala kang pake dahil di ka makagawa ng paraan.. i really don't buy your lame excuses... dahil ang linya mo parati ay "kung gusto may paraan,kung ayaw may dahilan.." sakto.. all you have was excuses.. indi mo ba marealize na ikaw na nga ang nakagawa ng mali kami pa ang lumalapit upang ikaw ay aming mapatawad...san ka pa dba?? haha..nakakatawa tong entry na toh.. i started very calm..ngaun naiinis na ako...naaalala ko kc yung mga sinabi mo sakin eh.. kung lam mo lng..parang crang plaka na paulit-ulit na tumatakbo sa utak ko lahat ng mga masasakit na salitang binitawan mo.. alam mo naman cguro na the tongue is sharper than the sword,, do you know why? maybe you don't so i'm going to tell..it is so because the sword can only wound and make a body of a person bleed but the tongue will pierce through a persons heart and comes out through the soul... pero lamu i don't know why i still want to keep you..it's stupid i know..ganun ako magmahal eh..ganun ako.. oo lam ko according to you indi "NORMAL" ang relationship natin..kc i'm not like the teeny-bopper immature girlfriends na selosa na wala sa lugar; na indi ka binibigyan ng free will; na basta napaka immature..i'm not saying na sobrang mature na ako...lam ko marami pa akong dapat matutunan pero ung ganung klaseng relationship is just plain immature..

Pondered |7:29 PM|

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hmm..what did i do for the past few days? hmm..una nag paperm ako...at wavvy lang nung una..kaso parang nagtapon lang ako ng pera kc it didn't make any difference...parang wala lng...kaya nagpareturn job ako...kanina lang kasama ko c kat(bestie) si ate pau..at si ia...yeyey ang saya dba....at etoh super curly na niya..hehe..di ko lam kung maganda sya or kung ano man...basta ang masasabi ko nakakapanibago...euin..tas pinanood ko ulet ang ice age this time kasama si ross at liz...at euin...laff trip pa rin kaming 3...ang saya nga eh..miss you guys!!! euin..sabog kaming lahat...hehe...euin lang...sana okei lng nakulot ako...for toot hehe..

Pondered |6:18 AM|

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OUCH!!!
ayan..after seeing donna and jm's friendster..nasaktan ko na ang aking sarili upang sa wakas ay itigil na ang kahibangang ito...
nakakahiyang isipin na minsan nga ay pinangarap ko ang isang katulad niya...
masaya na silang dalawa at ayaw kong masira iyon...as if naman magagawa ko..
kaya ayan...gudbye jm..isa ka na lamang wala lng sa buhay ko...salamat...

Pondered |3:53 AM|

huwaah!! am i becoming desperate?!
sabi ni liza i should stop this foolishness..
and yes i know she's so right...kahit ako gusto ko na rin...
kaya ngaun...cge..i'll stop...pipigilan ko na ang aking sarili..
i need to learn to control my emotions...i need to control myself...
but it really is so hard for me...kaya aking mga kaibigan ako ay nananawagan na ako ay inyong tulungan...HELP!!!!

Pondered |12:57 AM|

SELF-CONTROL..
help!! i badly need self-control! where can i buy?! can somebody pls tell me..
argh!! bakit ba kci ganito ako ma-inlove..too much effort..hmm kaya mas madali pggirls ang crush ko..di masyadong nakakahiyang mgbigay ng effort.. ngayon i'm so inlove with a guy...kay jm...and i can't help myself...tinawagan ko cya last night just to hear his voice..tas asked him if his going to pasig on monday..cos i'm going to learn how to cook his favorite dish which is kare-kare...then i'm going to give it to him..hehe..ala lng...papansin ko tlaga...argh!! i am so cheap...asar...grrr.... bakit kci ang unfair ng mundo...pag ang guy ang nagkagusto ang dali dali lng magpakita pero paggurls na..wala ng magawa kung hindi maghintay sa wala....argh!!!!

Pondered |12:57 AM|

WICKED SISTER!!!

argh!!! why does she have to be so irritating..
hello?! argh!!! i'm not doing anything to her..i just ate my brother's kisses
na hiningi ko at naka apat lng ako samantalang cya more than five ata..tas sasabihan niya ako ng kupal!!! taeka!!! taeka talaga!!! if you're so bored with your own world don't mess up other people's day just to entertain yourself,, frigid bitch!!!
wala naman akong ginagawa seio ganyan ka na mangtrato!!! i am so hating you right now!!! argh!!!!

Pondered |12:51 AM|

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