deviant confessions

zambales trip

woooooooohhh!!
ang saya..!! nung una ayaw pa ako payagan ng daddy ko..buti nlng sinuportahan ako ni mama,,tin2 at arki na magdrama upang maawa si papa at sa wakas ay payagan ako... binantayan ko siyang matulog at pag na aalimpungatan siya eh nagpapaalam ako ulet..o kaya naman tinititigan ko paawa effect ang aking mga mata..hehe...kaya ayun nung 3:30 pinayagan din ako at 4 umalis na kami ng bahay...nagkita kami sa 7eleven ni jm at lumipat ng chowking...dun aking natagpuan si albin...tas dumating na si donna..at sumunod naman si jm..at kasama niya sila jp,,bryan,,reinier,,bo...nga pala kasama ko c tin-tin..chaperon ko...hehe.....

ayan biyahe na...usap usap kami ni donna..kc magkatabi kami sa likod kasama si tin-tin..at mejo nagdaldalan na kami..kahit first time lang namin nagkita... nga pala si donna gf ni jm...taga ust cya at swimming team cya ng commerce..teamate nya si keziah..asteeg...ayun..tapos pangalaw siya..parehos kaming 2nd child...di ko lng alam kung meron din cyang second child syndrome..tas ung kapatid niya epileptic tas may adhd...pero sobrang nakakatuwa daw at mahal na mahal nila ang bunso nilang iyon...marunong naman daw cyang magfirst aid pagmangyari na atakihin si bunso.. nakalimutan ko na ung pangalan...tas december ang kanyang birthday...bale mas matanda cya sakin ng 2 buwan...ayun hanggang sa nakatulog at pagising ko eh mejo naliligaw-ligaw pa kami pero after 5 mins nakita na rin namin ang crystal beach...dumating kami dun ng mga 8-9am..ang ganda nung place..malinis..di nakakadire...tas ang ganda din ng nakuha naming tutulugan..open cya...pero ang saya dahil malaki at ang sarap matulog..presko...tas aun...ayos2 ng gamit..at nagsimula na kaming magbeach...ngskimboarding si jm at albin..nagpakitang gilas...at sumunod ang aking kapatid..ngunit indi ko matry dahil takot pa ako at nahihiya-hiya pa ng unti...pero habang tumatagal eh naiinggit na ako...kaya sinubukan ko na rin..ang hirap di ko makuha ung teknik...pero mejo nagagawa ko na...tas dumating si donna...at ang galing..nakuha niya kaagad...kaya sabi ko sa aking sarili kung kaya niya kaya ko rin..kaya aun..praktis up to sawa..hanggang sa umalis na sila para mamalengke at naiwan kami ni tin-tin..kaya todo praktis..mejo nakakaride na ako..pero needs a lot of improvement...tas un..kainan na...ang sarap lichong manok ang ulam at tahong...ang dami..sulet..busog...tas tulugan...tas beach ulet...tas dumating na si mommy marice..mommy tawag sakanya dahil parang si jam sa pbb siya ay single mom din...nagkakwentuhan kami at aking nalaman na cya ay nagaaral sa mcu ng pt at pupuntahan niya ako sa fatima...tas un...cya nagluto at si albin ng pagkain..ang sarap..tinde sinigang at lichong manok....sarap nung sinigang...tas nung gabi inuman session...unang bumigay eh si jm...natulog...knockout..kaya pinagtripan namin... nilagyan ni albin ng mousse ung kamay niya tas kinikiliti ung ilong niya kaya ayun...cya ang naglagay ng mouse sa sarili niyang muka...pati na rin ung cheek tint siya ung nagkalat sa mukha niya...sobrang laff trip...tast tulugan na..pagising kumain ng sandamakmak na pancit...tas beach ulet..at kinuwento ni mommy marice na tulad ko tuwang tuwa cya sa apat na kabarkada ni jm...at muka daw silang teletubbies..kaya aun...sila na ngaun ang 'teletubbies' na dating 'big brothers'..laff trip talaga pag naghiritan na sila..binaun namin si reinier funny hirap na hirap makatayo...tas skimboarding ulet...tas lunch na..ang sarap ng menu... inihaw na tilapia at liempo,, sinigang,, at ung pork steak ni albin,,at ung 'mommy salad'...tas swim ulet..nakakilala si albin ng 3 girls na mga mountaineers..si diana,,romer at audrey..at naglaro na kami ng 'football frisbee' team8 ko si diana,,albin,,bryan tas kalaban namin sila jm,,donna,,mommy,,reinier..funny nga eh...na near death si donna..pano tumalon cya upang salohin ung disk aba tablahin ba daw ni bryan..ayun tumalbog si donna..kala niya katapusan na niya,,,lumipad siya nun...tas un..uwian na...hehe..ang saya..sana maulet mule...
nga pala ang guapo ni albin...crush ko na cya...di na si jm....

ang saya nilang panoorin...si jm at donna..hindi sila mushy at pda...parang magbestfriend lng na sweet...basta gusto ko ganun din kami ng magiging bf ko..sana si albin na un..hehe....aun...hanggang sa muli..

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hmm...i miss jm...kahit may girlfriend na cya i still miss him..cyempre crush ko pa rin un...kaso binabawasan ko na..i don't want to come between them...eepal pa ba ako..eh mukhang nagmamahalan sila ng sobra...haaay....ala lng..

Pondered |1:14 AM|

well...everyday i'm starting to accept the fact that you don't care at all..actually i'm starting to not care bout you..why care for somebody who doesn't give a damn bout me right? i hate you!!! nyaha!! i think i need to stop hating you..it makes my world gloomy..i don't like it when i hate.....

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HATE and LOVE

i hate you!! i loathe you!!! i despise you!!! how dare you act like you care?! how dare you make me feel that i do matter to you!?!?! i never knew how shallow and egotistic you are till now...i'm tired of your empty promises,, your lies and your lame excuses!!! i hate you!!! i hate you!!! i never felt so much hate in my entire 19 years of existence...how dare you!!!!!!argh!!!! i hate your freaking guts!!! argh!! have you really forgotten how special i was to you? or how much you've loved me?!?! well guess not...cos you're so busy with your new object of affection!! how dare you!! do you remember the time we talked about our issues?! that night you asked for a second chance to be friends with me and soon be best of friends..? well too bad for me i was foolish enough to believe that you were sincere... but what did you do?! you just proved to me how worthless i am to you!!! i hate you!!! and to think that you told me that you insulted and disrespect me because you still have feelings for me?!?!?! how lame could that be?!?!?!?! honestly you didn't really explained yourself.. all you did was say "i dont know" and "i'm sorry" damn you!!! why do you keep on feeding me with your bullshit?! i hate you!!! argh!!! but you know what with all these hate it only shows how much i have loved you to hurt me this much... you've cut me really deep jheng...you did!! how inhumane is that?! i can't believe you've fooled me for so many times that you've made me hate you..but most of all made me hate myself for falling for the same shit again and again... i hate it!!! but you know what i've been doing?! i've been waiting for you to come to me...i've been waiting for the day that you'll realize that i do matter to you..that at some point i am important and that you can't stand us being enemies.. i'm waiting for the day where you'd really make an effort for us to be friends again..i've been waiting for the day that you'll realize how much you've hurt me... but then i again maybe i'm just waiting in vain...cos you're such an egotistic,,self-centered,,insecure,,shallow b*&^%!!!! i hate you!!!! but then iloveyou...

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FRIENDSTER MESSAGE

nikki wrote:
hi..yayon..nikki hir...
ex ni jheng...she doesn't know that i'm
writing u a message..and i hope we keep
it that way..i just want to ask something so
that i can understand why she's treating
me this way but before anything else may
i know what she's been telling you...cos
we had this big fight and i assume you
know about it..and i'm sorry if ever i had
offended you...you've been so good to
me and i don't want you thinking bad
things about me because of what went on
between jheng and i...anyways is she
really like this to her exes? or is she
giving me a special treatment cos of what
i did...i hope you can keep this as a
secret..cos i don't want her to think that
i'm invading her space or something like
that...i just want to understand her thats
all...and i hope you can help me...thank
you for your time..

yAyOn wrote:
> hey... its bin a wyl huh! nweis, honestly, im not
> keen on whats happened between you two... all we
> heard is that you guys called it quits... we we're
> surprised and disaapointed nga coz we thought
> you're cool and the 2 of you's deoin well the last
> tym we went out... then we learned jheng has a
> new relationship... i thought u guys are okay?
> though not really great considering your past... she
> works in your family's canteen ryt? i don't even
> know d real deal y you guys went separate ways...
> i juz assumed you had a falling out... since almost
> always that's what happens in the kind of situation
> you're in... juz d same whatever's goin on with u
> guys ryt now, you can be rest assured that you
> and me are okay and we can be friends... you
> haven't done anything to offend me... well at least
> nothing i know of... so you don't have to worry
> about offending me or something... i hope you 2
> will still end up as friends... maybe it wasn't meant
> to be more than that... that's y ur in 2 different
> directions ryt now... juz d same i wish you luck... i
> hope you'll find happiness and peace... as i've said
> m not privy to what happened to you peeps and to
> what could be your present problem is but all i can
> assure you jeng's a gud person, maybe a bit
> complicated, but she has a good and a big heart...
> i hope you can understand her even only as a
> friend...tnx! :)

nikki wrote:
ei...i'm glad to hear that we could be
friends...it really means a lot for
me..thank you...actually we broke up
because i got so guilty bout me telling
lies to my parents..she taught me to love
them and she taught me well.....also i
became at some point disloyal to her..cos
i found myself having feelings for this
certain guy and because i want to be
honest with her i told her..and ofcourse
she got mad.i just want to clear things up
i didn't have an affair...we don't even
have a mutual understanding...it was just
me...and so i didn't want our relationship
to go on knowing that i was capable of
having feelings for anybody else but
her..and from the turn of events it led me
to that decision..but then she keeps on
thinking that i did played her...but i didn't
because way before i broke up with her
we were already in troubled waters and
my feelings for her somehow weakened
that's why i was able to feel for somebody
else...but i still love her and she wasn't
able to see that..it's just that it pains me
to know that she replaced me so
easily...knowing that she knows i still love
her...and now i'm trying my best to build
a friendship between us but then she
keeps on pushing me away and treating
me differently...sad...='c

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