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Artist: Anastacia
Song: Sick And Tired
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HATE and LOVE
i hate you!! i loathe you!!! i despise you!!! how dare you act like you care?! how dare you make me feel that i do matter to you!?!?! i never knew how shallow and egotistic you are till now...i'm tired of your empty promises,, your lies and your lame excuses!!! i hate you!!! i hate you!!! i never felt so much hate in my entire 19 years of existence...how dare you!!!!!!argh!!!! i hate your freaking guts!!! argh!! have you really forgotten how special i was to you? or how much you've loved me?!?! well guess not...cos you're so busy with your new object of affection!! how dare you!! do you remember the time we talked about our issues?! that night you asked for a second chance to be friends with me and soon be best of friends..? well too bad for me i was foolish enough to believe that you were sincere... but what did you do?! you just proved to me how worthless i am to you!!! i hate you!!! and to think that you told me that you insulted and disrespect me because you still have feelings for me?!?!?! how lame could that be?!?!?!?! honestly you didn't really explained yourself.. all you did was say "i dont know" and "i'm sorry" damn you!!! why do you keep on feeding me with your bullshit?! i hate you!!! argh!!! but you know what with all these hate it only shows how much i have loved you to hurt me this much... you've cut me really deep jheng...you did!! how inhumane is that?! i can't believe you've fooled me for so many times that you've made me hate you..but most of all made me hate myself for falling for the same shit again and again... i hate it!!! but you know what i've been doing?! i've been waiting for you to come to me...i've been waiting for the day that you'll realize that i do matter to you..that at some point i am important and that you can't stand us being enemies.. i'm waiting for the day where you'd really make an effort for us to be friends again..i've been waiting for the day that you'll realize how much you've hurt me... but then i again maybe i'm just waiting in vain...cos you're such an egotistic,,self-centered,,insecure,,shallow b*&^%!!!! i hate you!!!! but then iloveyou...