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billabong boardshorts roxy two piece body glove surf board hiking shoes addidas jacket lakambini pants ipod a new cellphone
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Artist: Anastacia
Song: Sick And Tired
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hmm..what's with roxyGIRL?? why do you need to ask her number from me?? nananadya ka ba? i can't figure you out..? hehe..wala lng... hmm..mejo selos ako dun ah..
hehe..weird ko noh..pero ayos lng..kc indi naman tau...achaka buddies lng naman tau...i don't know..i love you as a friend..but i like you at the same time..but i don't think i want you as a boyfriend...pero parang gusto ko..basta magulo..labo..hehe..hay naku..ewan..bakit ba ganito..? bat di nlng ba friends nlng talaga..
Peter
peter..he's my buddy...he was my classmate first year first sem.. and just a month ago he started catching up with us...since her girl broke up with him... but then as we talked he told me that he was starting to fall for me...and i just don't feel the same way about him...but i cannot deny that i do love and like him...i love him as my buddy (best guyfriend) but i also like him more than that.. so it's qutie confusing.. anyways phoebe, our born again friend asked us to attend KKB fatima prayer meeting.. and when we started introducing ourselves the leader tried to guess my name...but then the name that flashed before his eyes was "peter"?! what the?! is this some kind of sign?! hehe...i don't believe in those things but i do believe that everything happens for a reason and the reason behind this coincidence? i don't know yet...
aking napagtanto habang ako ay nakasakay sa ordinaryong bus...
na tama lang pala na maiwan ako dito sa kalawakang ito...
at hindi rin pala ako dinala doon ni tilapia...
matagal na akong palutang-lutang dito...
madalas pag ako ay magisa at nagmumuni-muni...
ang laging asa aking isipan ay kung ano nga ba talaga pra sakin ang pag-ibig?
simulan ko muna kung anong ibig sabihin pagbinitawan ko ang dalawang salita na "mahal kita" o tatlo "i love you"...
=mahal kita at hinding hindi kita iiwan...
=mahal kita at kahit ano pang sabihin ng iba,, aalamin ko muna ang lahat bago maniwala o hindi...
=mahal kita at isang tawag o text mo lang,,handa akong itabi ang lahat para sayo...
=mahal kita at tanggap kita kung sino ka...pero mahal din kita para samahan ka habang tinatahak mo ang napakahirap na daan ng pagbabago...
=mahal kita at magbabago ako ng kasama ka...
=mahal kita at dadamayan kita pagmasaya ka..at lalo na pagmalungkot ka...
=mahal kita at makikinig ako sa lahat ng sasabihin mo...
=mahal kita at paglalaban ko ang ating pagkakaibigan...
naisip ko...matagal na akong andito sa kalawakang ito...naghahanap ng tao na makakapagbalik sakin sa paraiso...ngunit aking napagtanto na walang sino man ang kayang gumawa nito kung hindi ako...kelangan kong matuto na bumalik magisa upang matuto akong tumayo sa sarili kong paa...sa ugali kong madaling maniwala at magtiwala kelangan kong matutunan na bumitaw sa mga pangakong di kailan may matutupad...
why?
i can't shake this off..
bakit may mga taong dadalhin ka sa kalawakan...
papangakuan ka na indi mangiiwan..
pero mapalingon ka lang...
hala,, magisa ka nlng palang lumulutang...
indi ka naman makababa..
kasi umaasa ka na ang pangakong binitawan...
ay di mapapako...
pero tumirik na ang iyong mga mata sa kahihintay..
achaka mo lang mapagtatanto na...
walang babalik...
at para ka lang tangang naghihintay sa wala...
bakit ganito?
bakit may mga taong nangiiwan?
bakit may mga taong mapanlinlang?
ang saklap naman...
bakit ako pa ang napagtripan...?
missing you...
here i go again...
falling for the same shit...
why do i trust people so easily?
why do i have so much faith?
i know its a good thing but according to ma-in i should be guarded for there will be people who will always be out there to hurt me...because not all people are good...
i miss my buddy..where is he?
why do i always end up with people who can't keep promises?
maybe because i myself is having a hard time keeping promises...
nakaonline si buddy ngaun...pero he's not replying to my messages...
sad..='c
and i can feel that all he's been telling me are all bullshit...
but i can't help myself...it's easier for me to believe than not to...
and again i'm in this shit hole...melancholy is taking over me...
why?
why does it have to be this way...
why do things like this happen to me..?
am i a bad person?
argh...i feel so down right now...
i hate it...
why does he have to say those things that he really didn't mean...
and why do i have to believe him?
argh...i am so naive...
i feel so sad that i want to cry my heart out..
this month has been an emotional roller coaster ride...
God...please help me...be with me...i really need you right now... well i always be needing you..but right now...i need you more than ever...help me to be strong...help me to know from what's the truth and what's lies...