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typhoon milenyo
argh!!! because of milenyo we don't have electricity and worse of all powerup pasig was destroyed...not totally...but now it doesn't have a roof... argh..just when i started to climb again...anyways it will be temporarily closed and we can only climb at powerup tandang sora which far from our house...and it would be a real hassle to go there to climb...but then i think i need to climb so there so that my membership won't go to waste....
climbing
i miss climbing with ia...that's why i was so happy when we went climbing a while ago...yeyey!!! me,,ia and albin...climbed...ia got really braver and stronger than before...and i'm so proud of her right now...go ia go!!harhar...iloveyouia!!
explanation
okei..i just talked to katpottie and they did try to contact me.. i just don't know what's wrong with sun,,but i wasn't able to receive any message from them...so there...done...
what is wrong with me?!
what's with the world?! is it me?! or is it me?! i've been really down these past few days...
i miss a lot of people...
and i feel so alone...
lately i always find myself arguing with my friends at fatima... and it's all about such simple things...and i'm really thankful that they understand me...that they're still there for me even though i've becoming so annoying lately...
i don't really know why i'm becoming like this..all i know is that i'm longing for somebody...for anybody's affection right now...
and just when i feel really alone...i get to read a blogger entry of my bestfriend narrating about how they celebrated her birthday..without me knowing about it...heck i wasn't even invited... and i wasn't there to witness her first blue o experience.. well..i don't want to think that we have a gap..because i know that will never happen between the three of us..so i'm going to rationalize what just happened.. i wasn't invited because jheng was also celebrating her birthday and mikah was there and kat and leslie...and there..no explanation needed.. that's it... there's no other way around what just happened.. i just hope they're going to surprise me with them holding my jacket...harhar... anyways..i just hoped i was able to celebrate kaipottie's bday with her...but i didn't..so there...i have nothing else to say...
okei...
now i'm going to tell what i really feel...i got really really hurt...it's like a gigantic double edged-sword was just speared to my heart...i mean i could've understand it..i do have the capacity to understand things like that right? i mean why didn't anyone tell me?? i was waiting for an invitation..and there wasn't any..so i thought there wasn't any celebration...but there was...and i wasn't invited..and i understand that because it's not actually kai's celebration..it's jheng's bday celebration...so why am i this badly hurt?! because nobody told me...nobody even bothered to text me...or missed call me..maybe that's just the way it is now...maybe i'm just too far from them that they can't reach me anymore...i mean i do give an effort...i do go to ust to visit kai,,ma-in and ia...i wanted to go to arellano once but kat wasn't able to receive my text message...well i guess there's a perfect explanation to all of this...i just have to wait for them to tell me..i don't think i can approach them...kinda shy to do so...
Lord,,
i'm really lonely right now..please be with me..please be with me...i don't know what else to do to fill this emptiness...i mean i really feel the gap between me and them...but i know there isn't any gap..i'm just making things up...or maybe there is i'm just too scared to face that reality...wala ba akong effort??? ako ba ang may kasalanan kung bakit ganito?? they have work and i have my studies..and i know they're all busy...there were times that i wanted to call them but can't cos i know they're at work...and i just hope that they will talk to me soon..and surprise me with my jacket..harhar.. kidding..i just want them to surpise me..maybe at my school..or something like that..
ouch..ouch...ouch...='c
solitude
i have lots of friends and i love each and single one of them...
but i can't help but feel lonely... i don't know why i'm feeling this way..but i'm seeking for a guys love.. it's getting kind of pathetic but what the heck..that's what i think i need right now... i know it's all in the mind...i don't really know what i want right now but i think it's somebody... i want somebody who needs to hear my voice before he gets out of bed...and before he sleeps...i want to be somebody's confidant...yung tipong ako lang ung taong kaya nyang kausapin pagdating sa problema at pag emo cya...ewan ko ba..ang pathetic na nga eh...di ko lam kung ba't ganito... pero indi naman ako ngsettle sa kung ano lng meron..cyempre i still want somebody who's really serious bout me...basta gusto ko ng ishare yung love na naiipon...pero cguro God has bigger plans for me..gusto nya sobrang mature na ako bago ako pumasok sa isang relationship...cguro nga ganun..pati na rin sana ung magiging parnter ko sana mature na rin...huwaah...asan na ba kasi ung prince ko? puro frogs.. ayoko ng frogs...hay..sana makita mo an ang daan papunta sakin..harhar...
My Date with Liza
we went to a gig organized by the students of UA&P at capitol 8. Ej,, liza's long time friend was the vocalist of "Kumpas". the band rocked!!! it was a real good gig but the crowd was such zombies...they're just standing there...i wanted to see some jumping and rocking but then they're all lame...and so i just stand there with them and became one of the zombies...anyways after that we went to greenbelt with Pf... he treated us to bollywood..and we ordered dakamari? something like that and shisha...and he paid it all with his gold master card...he's rich...but i felt bad because we were'nt able to thank him properly...anyways after chilling we danced at absinth...and then went home a 2...liza rocked!!!harhar..imissyouliza...
tears for you...
i can't take this...i don't understand...why can't you see the beauty you posses? why can you not acknowledge the value God has given you?! i hate this... i'm sorry but i really can't take it...i hate the way he put you aside..i hate it when he becomes sensitive about himself but never thought about how you feel.. why do you let yourself suffer like this?!why can't you see the way i see you?!you're smart..i know you are...i think you're smart enough to know that you deserve better and i know you know that but you just don't want to accept that fact...because you're too afraid that you'd be left with nobody...but you shouldn't because everybody around you loves you..it's so unfair that you can't appreciate the love we're giving you... you don't need somebody to rescue you...all you need is God and yourself..but we are also here to love and fight for you...if you know you deserve someone better then let go..